Friday, May 8, 2009

Tales of the Koko Lion: Part 8.5, Avocado Afternoon

"You never know what is enough unless you know what is more than enough."

William Blake


Tommy and I entered the avocado grove from the same dusty trail each time, leaving behind the sawgrass and sage, and enveloping ourselves in the cool, deep green of the only forest we knew. The sprawling trees with their broad blue-green leaves blocked out most of the midday sun. We'd left our dog partners, Rip and Jansen, back at the house. We scrunched across the dried-leaf floor to a welcoming tree, stopped, and gave it a light shake. The avocados were ready for picking, and would soon be stripped by the corporations who monopolized the local pickers, and gave the avocado ranchers, large and small, a take-it-or-leave-it deal. For that reason, we felt entitled to harvest grocery bags full of avos to sell to neighbors for money for Mexican firecrackers, or to go the movies; maybe to seeThe Night of the Living Dead again. After all, we were 12-year old boys.

But today we had ambitions of a distinctly epicurean nature. When we shook the tree lightly, a couple of perfectly ripe, pebbly and purplish Hass avocados fell to the ground with lusciously weighty thuds. We took them up to the top of tree, and perched ourselves on the forks of the thin branches up in the broken sunlight. We pulled out our folding knives and cut around the avos, down to the fat seeds, with a sweeping turn of the wrist. We popped them open, revealing their gloriously satin green interiors, and tweeked the seeds out with the tips of our knives. We reached into our back pockets, and pulled out the spoons we always carried into the groves with us. Just as I was about to scoop up a bite, Tommy stopped me, sporting a mischevious look. He reached into his front pocket, smiling broadly, and pulled out two of those little blue Morton's salt and pepper shakers. We laughed, and spooned up our seasoned alligator pears with the relish of secret winners.

One day out in the canyons, Tommy and I went into a huge patch of prickly pear cactus armed with machetes, and spent our repressed rage lopping and chopping our way through the tear-shaped leaves. The slicing felt so meaty and tactile that it made my teeth stand on edge. Looking back on the destruction we'd wrought, I felt purged, and deeply saddened, like I imagine one feels after surviving a desperate battle; only this time, no one fought back. The oozing green leaves lay like tears piled on the ground. I could hear the plants crying in my mind's ear.

We continued the day in the same open vein as we switched to our rifles and sat under an old Bigleaf maple, shooting every bird that landed above us, until even the dogs became as palpably disgusted with us as we were with ourselves and withdrew, leaving us to that still soul-place where we could hear the cumulative cries of all the living consciousness we'd cut short that day arise inside our hearts.

I don't know what effect that day had on Tommy, but aside from the odd mosquito or ant, I would never intentionally kill anything again.

"I am the true Self in the heart of every creature...the beginning, middle, and end of their existence."

The Bhagavad Gita 10.20

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